JOANNNNN

tell me what you want to hear,

2012-02-12T22:45:00.004+08:00

2245 hours. Mugging half asleep.

The pain's biting at my heart like hell. I don't even know if this pain is self inflicted or because of something else. Someone please make this ache go away, make the tears stop flowing and make everything right again.

2248 hours. Half dead.

resolute

2012-02-10T22:00:00.002+08:00

2224 hours.

Drained. Shagged. Tired.

Stress's beginning to set in, responsibilities begin to flood life, and strain is starting to show.

Next week's gonna be real hectic, hope all goes well for week 7. Fingers crossed.

one step closer,

2012-02-05T11:14:00.003+08:00

Nothing to update about lately.

Been out w the boyf yesterday and meeting him again later. Tuition tmr and a belated LA test as well. Probably debate too, but it clashes right smack on tuition and i'd never give up my grades for anything.

Hope all goes well for week 6.

you've got that one thing,

2012-01-29T23:20:00.001+08:00

it all began here.

2012-01-28T00:34:00.002+08:00

I'm the predator and you're the prey.

The prey fears the predator, not the other way round.

You'll live in my shadow, for how long? For life.

I don't need you unless i want to consume you.

You want to fight me? Joke's on you.

i will love you for a thousand years,

2012-01-25T19:54:00.006+08:00

Had CNY celebration in school!

Mrs Ong got us yusheng omg mad love :>

With Anni.

4E! :>

Had the concert later, was so bored omg. I really wish sometimes we'd be allowed to do our own stuff instead of being forced to watch the performance.

Met Evangel with Shanice @Astons for a short meetup.

BITCH WAS LATE FOR AN HOUR.

Still my pretty girl though ^^ Love you babe, meet up soon k!

Official lessons tomorrow. :< Major sian.

you are magical,

2012-01-24T20:06:00.004+08:00

had my auntie's family over on chu er!

went out to get more food.

Played Stacko! Haha lost twice and i had to eat cake and jelly as a forfeit. Omg torture max haha.

Played Cheat too. Paul is suspicious. Reminded me of the cheat game i had with my sis, Adam and Aaron on the plane back to S'pore.

Yup, that was my chu er, which was without doubt, the best day of my four days.

i love you more,

2012-01-23T19:25:00.005+08:00

First and foremost...

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR :)

Received so many smses at 12+. :) Warms my heart seriously. Thanks guys :>

If you follow me on twitter, you'd probably realise that i was wearing black from head to toe on CNY.

Anyway, chu xi was the reunion dinner! Had my paternal grandpa and sis's boyf come over. The food was good, just that it feels like another normal day. There was totally no atmosphere at all.

Chu yi, which was today, was spent at my maternal's granddad's house.

i couldn't get along with my younger cousins like how we did last time.

I couldn't play hide and seek with the 2 twelve year olds because i found it silly, and i couldn't talk to the fourteen year old about life because i found it too premature, and all he could manage was a "ah, orh, ok." anyway, so... all efforts shall be futile.

I was so bored, thank God someone called me, and i was entertained for at least an hour? Went home around 3 before going out again.

My fav aunt's coming over tmr omg omg omg can't wait! It's probably going to be the best day of all 4 days of the cny holiday! :> And my sis's boyf's coming over too! :> Yay youngster's gathering ftw. :>

hope y'all have had a happy cny! Cheers :>

Nothing shines, quite as bright.

2012-01-21T21:55:00.002+08:00

2200 hrs. Hungry. Cold. Alone.

i miss you.

day 17 of 366,

2012-01-17T20:30:00.002+08:00

Y4 is definitely hectic. First day of the week and i stayed back to complete the maths assignments. Headache afterwards, think i bored Charlene on the bus ride back cos i wasn't talking much. :<

Day 3 tomorrow, my longest and most tedious day. Hope i survive, then thursday and friday will be a breeze. The weekends have never looked more enticing.

there's no guarantee that this will be easy,

2012-01-15T00:41:00.004+08:00

When i feel like giving up, i think of why i held on for so long in the first place. I know everything's so uncertain, but at least give me a chance to try and give this an ending. I can't promise forever, but i promise you i'll make every second count.

0040 hours, and i'm crying as i type this. Getting way too emotional lately, and i don't know why. Anyway, school in around 24hrs time, major sigh.

sparks fly,

2012-01-11T21:33:00.004+08:00

Survived my super long 1615 day! Feel like i've died and revived, this feeling is fantastic. Was literally stumbling around the whole day cos i was so shagged. What's new? I'm always so tired.

Anyway, 'studied' with Charlene after class. We talked a lot, wasted so much time haha. And she made me laugh so hard i nearly slipped off the chair. Ahhh gotta love that girl <3

Endless piles of comprehensions. It's so maddening to do the same thing over and over but still get bad results. No hope for LA.

looking very cui after a long day in school.

More than half of the week has passed. Looking forward to the weekend. :>

yesterday,

2012-01-08T20:37:00.002+08:00

Sat was spent @Changi Airport T2 mugging. Love the atmosphere, noisy but not THAT noisy. Perfect for people like me who can't study when it's too noisy or when it's too quiet.

Had lunch @ the staff canteen in T2. Went there ages ago and i remembered the food was sogood. Went there again that day and had this.

sudden craving for hokkien mee haha. Been ages since i last had it, and this was freaaaaaaking good.

The friend with me was like,"i don't get it. You said you wanted to lose weight, and you still eat this?"

K ttfn.

There's school tomorrow. Sighz.

2012-01-05T21:50:00.002+08:00

3rd day and probably dead by now. So shagged and all, i don't think i could survive one year, even. Everyday's like a rat race, going past so fast, and draining me out. The weekends have never looked more enticing.

God, please give me the strength to carry on.

it's good to be back,

2012-01-03T19:27:00.003+08:00

First day back @ school! Feels good to be back, actually.

Nothing much today, just listening to talks and doing activities, which included writing a letter to myself one year from now. Idk why i wrote it, even. I mean, one year from now i might be dead or something, you might have to burn the letter for me to read.

Okay that's morbid, forget that i've ever said that.

Anyway!

Gifts from friends. Thanks everyone <3

yup, it's around 1920hrs when i took this pic. The sky's so pretty! I want to watch the sunset with my boyf one day hahaha.

Don't judge the pictures, my handphone can only do so much! Oh yeah, talking about my handphone, i dropped it today. Again. I was so scared it would cease to work cos even the battery fell out. And everyone was like,"nvm la, Nokia phones very good one!"

Alright, official lessons start tomorrow! Kinda wishing i was a y1 or y3 so i can have my orientation instead of studying. Anyway, ttfn.

Everyday i love you a little bit more,

2012-01-02T20:17:00.002+08:00

Still you catch me by surprise, when i look into your eyes, when you turn and say that you love me. Thought i couldn't want you more than i did before, but everyday i love you a little bit more and more.

to love and to be loved

It's been a long time since someone was willing to listen to everything i said, understand and empathize. I have gone through extremities of emotions, got myself into the stickiest of situations, it's a miracle you never once told me that i was a blundering fool. You gave me so much to look forward to, knocked so much sense into me, and i'm so thankful to have you around.

Thank you for putting up with me, listening to me and tolerating all my insecurities. You're amazing, and i couldn't ask for more.

i love you.

the last day,

2011-12-31T19:17:00.014+08:00

I really didn't expect this year to pass so fast. It's already the last day of the year and school starts in two days time. I still remember when i just started year 3. Year 4 and sixteen next year, and i can't help but feel so unprepared. Anyway, i'll just blog about what happened this year briefly.

January:

This was CNY at my cousin's house. #bored

Got acquainted with my new y3 class, 3 esprit.

January was spent getting to know new people.

February:

Feb was spent on my moot parliament programme. Met new people from the law industry and the law faculty of NUS.

March:

Debate team entered the JGs and won 2 out of 3 rounds, a first.

Had this captain ball competition with other schools and we almost so damn nearly won. Anyway, it was one of the super fun times spent with my squad.

Had my NUSPA debate, of which we lost. RVHS is good, Yi Jin just totally wowed me.

April:

Evangel left for Hwachong international. Was sad for like 1 week haha.

May:

SLP day.

Had an awkward dinner with my extended family at some hotel. My sis and I chilled in the washroom for this super long time.

Evangel's sleepover <3

watched 'porn' with my squad mates, so funny and awkward hahaha.

June:

YDO!

Didn't get to compete cos of some reasons, but we chaired and kept the time for the debates! Got to know other debaters from other schools and everyone was so nice and friendly :>

July, August, September:

Started to destroy myself from inside at this time of the year. Everything came crashing down and i couldn't take things very well. I could have just literally died here. Found God and thus found the strength to carry on. Got through this eventually and pulled myself together just before the eoys!

October:

EOYs was the crux here. Fucking unprepared please, i studied for all my subjects one day before. Totally tired of living.

Nov, dec:

out with my girlfriends i freaking love, idk what i would do without them.

and had a debate outing with the team!

Went to Taiwan, tried amazing food, saw amazing scenery, met amazing people, excluding the tour guide. Whole day only know how to piss me off.

In 2011, i...

-met people who mean the world to me

- felt what it was like to love and to be loved

-went through horrible pain, physically and mentally

-found amazing people

-found God and learnt to put my faith in him

2011 was bittersweet. It wasn't a bitch, but it wasn't being an angel either. Just that i learnt a lot, and i've been through a lot. It was the year i got damn high and at the same time, hit an all time low.

2012, I'm not asking for much, just don't throw too many curveballs at me.

sunrise

2011-12-29T17:36:00.002+08:00

You're perfect, everything i wanted. I couldn't ask for more.

2012 resolutions

2011-12-28T18:38:00.001+08:00

3 more days to the end of 2011. This year has really been bittersweet. Can't believe i'm going to be year 4 and 16 next year! 16 seems to be such a big jump from 15, but i still have a mental age of a 5 year old. Hopefully the world doesn't end, it's just fucking idiotic, so i studied like... 10+ years for nothing? No way man.

Resolutions for 2012,

good grades. I have a really negative feeling about next year's academic results, and i don't even know why.

Okay, obviously i won't be having an A+ for everything. Kinda conceded to the fact i might just stay in dhs till 2014, cos the gpa i need to transfer will be stinkin high and beyond my means.

I need to grow taller! Fml it's been my resolution every year and i'm like only 1.61m. I've stayed at that height since year 1 or something?! And my growth spurt is ending really soon! Fml x2 i think girls stop growing at 16, which is next year. Thank God i'm entitled to wearing heels.

i need to stop spending money like water. It's time i realised that my family doesn't run a bank or operate a mint. It's time to take the bus and cut down on taxis. Fml, Comfort, y u no cut prices?!

i need to improve on my relations. Thinking back to this year, my personality sucked, and i totally didn't really treasure the people around me very much. This year, i'll cherish every single individual around me.

yup basically that's all for now. I love you all, have a gr8 2012!

the one that got away,

2011-12-26T18:28:00.003+08:00

This was friday the 23rd with the best friend!

Met up @Starbucks Tampines bright & early to pass her what i got for her in Taiwan. She's wearing it around her neck! I got 2, since it was so pretty. She gave me pink earrings. Omg so pretty i like! Thank you babe. And y'know she was like,"I KNEW YOU LIKED PINK!" Why she sokute!

Talked over coffee for a few hours. Missed her so much, it felt like i haven't seen her for eternity. But it felt like nothing changed at all, we still could talk like we did. Love you long time, Evangel.

And i love you too.

"can i bless you?" Day6

2011-12-25T22:49:00.005+08:00

After breakfast, you can do your last minute shopping before your flight back to Singapore.

if you wondered why i totally didn't camwhore or anything...

Quit asking why i didn't inherit my mum's eyes. I. Don't. Know!

Morning in Taipei starts off really early. I love the chill and it's so sad that that day's the last day. :( Anyway the last day was spent in Ximending again!

Then it was time to head back to the hotel.

Went to the sky garden! View is #sopretty.

Headed to the airport afterwards! Played super gl orientation games with sis, Adam and Aaron. So funny la, everyone had a good laugh. Omg if not for this session, i wouldn't have known i have been gl-ed so many times haha.

But then when we were @ the airport getting security checks and all,

THOSE NASTY SCANNING PEOPLE AT THE TAIWAN AIRPORT TOOK AWAY MY FACEWASH D,:

Like i will bomb the airport, seriously. Look at my face, i look so innocent! Lol jk. But i felt so cheated omg. Bloody thing was like bloody ex and they freaking took it away!

Haha anyway, the 4 of us, ie: the coolest young gang in the whole tour, lol jk, sat together on the plane! And we played cheat haha. Omgz so funny la, seeing us siblings expose each other. Aaron is sokute la haha. "Look into my eyes, did you cheat?" Hahaha.

Afterwards, sis & aaron slept, so Adam and i talked! Haha thk God i sat beside him on the plane or i would be staring into blank space doing nothing for 4 long hours. I can never sleep on plane rides, either. Talked about life and everything, feel so lucky to have met him out of the many people who also went to Taiwan!

Yup, so that ends my trip to taiwan. Overall, it was so awesome because of the people i met, and the new experiences. God bless TW.

"it's so cold, my goosebumps have goosebumps"day 5

2011-12-24T19:05:00.011+08:00

After breakfast, we will proceed to National Palace Museum, with the world's largest collection of priceless Chinese art treasures, spanning nearly 5,000 years of Chinese history. Next, we will visit Shilin Presidential Residence. It’s the former home of the last President Chang Kai-Shek. The expansive and elegant garden here has a romantic European feel, with rose beds and tree lined paths. Next visit the Handicraft center. Along the wharf are many cafes and restaurants. which we will proceed to the nearby Tamsui Old Street, where you can shop for Taiwan’s famous snacks such as “Grandma’s Iron Egg’s”. More than just beautiful scenery, it is also a great place for fresh seafood. Then we will visit Yuanshan Scenic Area. It is known for the garden behinds the Taipei city. Overlooking the landscape of Taipei city, there are two stone lions decorated with geomantic reason at the entrance of the path, it is quite historic. In the evening, we will visit Shihlin Night Market. It is a Great place of local handicrafts,clothes, toys, tasty local snacks and souvenirs.

There were so many tourists from China @ the museum. They shoved and pushed and kicked to get their way around. Talk about being civilized?! I was so annoyed i got shoved, like literally, to one side, i shoved that person back out of total irritation. If i had claws, i would claw her eyes out or something. Or i would pluck her teeth out. And she didn't even apologise! Not like i was expecting her to, if she did, pigs would fly and cows would really jump over the moon. She used her accent to say something like i was such a rude bitch. I heard san1 ba1. Or something like that. Who is the rude bitch now?

Then went to this flowery place to see flowers. Actually, there was some president's house there, but you actually had to queue to get in?! And since we're all not interested in history and we hate queuing, my family went for the flower viewing.

haha the kid in purple dyed his hair and permed it! #handsomeboy2004. Mad cute la, but so vain!

as Jerome said, i know i look very cui! No makeup, contacts etc. Sorry man, when i'm overseas, i don't really care about being pretty lol. Later kena kidnapped how!? And i'm not waking up early to be hiao! Lol.

Oh and the flowers! I was never a big fan of flowers but everything in the rose garden is super pretty and evangelic!

Your's truly took the following pictures by the way!

pretty or what?!

went to this old road to get local products! My mum went wild upon seeing packets after packets of iron eggs. Which imo taste disgusting but i know people who love it so much. I opened a packet at the hotel and i had to force myself to say it was good and start eating it or my mum would nag the hotel down. Formidable, huh?

street food as usual <3

this was like SGD0.40?!?! Omg how they earn money like that? And it was super good! If they came to S'pore, it's forever goodbye to Jollibean and Mr Bean. This is totally Superbean! #lame

Shilin afterwards!

Shilin is a night market which sells tons of food at super low prices. I'm looking through the food pics now and i'm salivating hahaha.

omgz the most awesome fried chicken chop! Max awesome haha. I wanted to eat more of it, but i didn't want the extra weight so my poor sis stomached everything. Love you sis, even if the reason sounds really morbid lol.

If you're wondering why i haven't been in a single accident, i overturned a cup of ice at a shop. Okay, i hope you're all happy now. I have the most slippery fingers ever. And i'm very accident prone.

but since it was the last night, my family and the other family of four went around the vicinity of the hotel to find something to do! Apparently the camera was not taken along, so i don't have pictures. :<

That's my 5th day. And last night. I was really feeling a bit down la haha. I'll miss so many things. The coldness, the wind, the people, the hotels, the shopping and the food. :(

"ahaha no one wants a picture with the aboriginal princess!" day4

2011-12-20T20:18:00.011+08:00

After breakfast, you may want to enjoy the facilities in the hotel before we are travel from Jiao Xi to Taipei through Hsueshan Tunnel which is considered a marvel of civil engineering and human perseverance. Next, visit Martyr's Shrine to view an elaborate ceremony of hourly guards change. Then we will stop at Aboriginal Product Shop. After lunch, we will visit 101 Shopping Mall, one of the tallest buildings in the world for shopping. (Observatory at own expenses) In the evening, we will proceed to Rao Ho Street Night Market. There are many kinds of local food, as like pearl milk tea, and so on.

Went to watch the guards procession! It was really so perfect, and it makes me wonder how long it takes for them to practice.

Climbed this really long flight of stairs up afterwards just to see the temple lookalike thing. But the air up there was really fresh.

Then lunch!

Look at all the fooooood. Missing Taiwan so much now! The standard of food there is so much better than S'pore's and so much cheaper!

Went to a aboriginal product shop afterwards.

the humongous lingzhi omgz.

So they were saying that the Taiwan Aboriginals were going to be extinct, and that the number of remaining people left were less than pandas. They invited the princess of the tribe out and said that we could have a picture with her afterwards if we wanted to.

but omg one small tube of this royal jelly cream is like 7k++?!?!?! Over my dead body, aboriginals.

Ended up taking pictures of useless things instead. I would feel a bit sorry for the aboriginals if they didn't try to dope my mum into buying a 10k+ box of lingzhi we would never eat. Thank God me and my sis pulled her away cos we were more thick-skinned. Told the woman we wanted to see 'other stuffs' and she refused to let go! She was like,"what stuff what stuff i bring for you to your table!"

I think if we didn't drag my mum away, we'd have ended up like 20k lighter after the whole trip! My dad absconded by himself. Walked to the deer's head and pretended to admire it.

The princess, was, uh, lol abandoned. LOL money don't come out, princess also don't come out!

Went to some fengshui shop afterwards!

Booyah!

Once again my mum was the dead target. Another salesperson wanted to sell her this 13k jade pedant. 15 more seconds and she would have bought it, swear. Once again, it's my sis and i to the rescue -.-

I never believed in Fengshui. If you got God, you don't need fengshui! It's like some self-fulfilling prophecy, and meddling in it is like falling into a bottomless abyss. Once you get in, you can't come out.

Taipei 101 afterwards!!!!

super foggy that day, so didn't bother to go up! :(

sat around a bakery's for like, an hour before going off.

OH OH OH ANDDDDDD

WAIT FOR IT

IT'S A HUMONGOUS APPLE

AND A DORA CEREAL BOX!

Okay feeling so anticlimax now :/but whaaaat, it's not often you see such a plus size apple and a dora cereal box here!

Raohe next!

street foooooood!

Omg Jun Jie, how can you EVER be tired of this?! I would battle a moose to have this nowwwwww!

Albeit the dark sky, it was probably just 5 going on 6??? That's what i totally hated about the tour. Bringing me to night markets in the evening. It's called a NIGHT market, not an EVENING market or a LATE AFTERNOON market! Went there and there was almost nothing to see! :(

Anyway that's the end of my day4!

Blogging about this makes me miss Taiwan so much right now.

"The princess is a cooked lobster" Day3

2011-12-19T17:14:00.007+08:00

After breakfast, we will proceed to Tou Cheng Leisure farm for some DIY activities. Next visit National Centre of Traditional Arts. The Folk Arts Park is a multi-functional park that helps promote traditional folk craftsmanship, arts, music, drama, and dance and is also a multi-functional, resting place for cultural and educational purposes. Then we will travel to Jiao Xi. Tonight we will be having our dinner in Evergreen Resort Hotel for buffet. After dinner, you can proceed to their Phoenix Theater, Outdoor Hotspring or even their swimming pool. (Please note that it is a compulsory to prepare swimming suit & cap)

couldn't even get a decent sleep @night. Finally got the reply i was waiting for and it came through fb msg. Was so preoccupied with my thoughts i couldn't sleep. Hey, what was a 'K' supposed to mean?

Anyway, we had this DIY thing in the morning. We made our own handkerchiefs. For someone who has never been adept at art, my 'masterpiece' turned out to resemble a period stain 'cos i chose red paint!

Say 'awwww!' This qtpie was in my tour group and he's very cute!

Went to watch this show at Yilan afterwards.

Just another cliche story where the disobedient princess defies her father and goes out to play, gets in danger, but was saved by a prince. They fall in love and she wants to marry him, but gets rejected by her father. And in the end, by some way or another, she still ends up marrying him.

haha the little girl in red is another girl from the tour. Also super cute and very intelligent!

Street food againnnnnn :D

I don't remember much of what we did in day 3, so i'm only blogging till here. Tata :>

"what kind of a God-forsaken place is this?!" Day 2

2011-12-19T13:18:00.013+08:00

After breakfast, proceed to Gold Ecological Park. A park with combination of ecological, mining cultural and historical function. You will find a 220kg pure 999gold in Museum of Gold which is touchable. There’re a few tunnels open for public to experience how the miners worked in the past. Then we will drive past YinYangHai where the sea was distinctly blue on one side and yellow on the other (due to the accumulation of minerals) Then we will enjoy a scenic drive along the beautiful North Coast towards Nanya Rock Formations. It is noted for its fantastic rock formations and sea-eroded coral shore. The entire coastline here is a veritable sculpture garden that illustrates, in stone, the incomparable artistry of weathering and wave action. Next, we’ll visit Chiufen, the filming site of 'City of Sadness” The traditional way of life still exists there, and is reminiscent with the aura of an old mining town. Don’t miss the chance to try some famous local dish such as Taro and Sweet Potato Ball etc. *Lunch at own expense in Chiufen. After lunch, we will proceed to Tou Cheng Leisure Farm to experience the traditional countryside life. We will be experiencing fruit plucking, and also visit the mini zoo and learn the cultural of paddy rice. We will be having countryside BBQ for dinner, Bamboo DIY, T-shirt DIY and etc

I can't really recall what i did on day 2. The main part was when we went to Toucheng Leisure farm. But it was raining and the place was all muddy. My sis and i were screwed cos we both didn't bring extra shoes. Talk about smart, really.

Hotel> Chiufen> scenery viewing >Toucheng Leisure farm

Went to Chiufen first.

street food @ chiufen!

It's not really the time to get clothes 'cos it's winter there. Even if you can get clothes, it's all for the winter season! No point buying it since i can't wear it in Singapore. But the food was plentiful and sogood, and it made up for the lack of shopping. I swear i never got hungry in Taiwan. There's always so many stalls selling street food, or a bakery nearby.

Still managed to get things for people, though. :>

Went to look @scenery afterwards. Breathtaking, but extremely cold. There was some sea which was supposedly supposed to be in 2 colors, yellow and blue. Can only see one, though. Blue. ._.

Went to the farm next! It rained. We still had to tour the farm, though. My shoes were inevitably soaked and muddy! I was inwardly cursing myself for my stupidity cos i didn't bring any extra shoes! :<

I was so fascinated by the ducks! They made so many noises but none of them sounded like quacks. It went like quaaaarkiiiieeeeeooo.

^Aaron, one of the people i was more acquainted with on the tour.

Haha actually the tour would be super boring without him and his bro around. (Adam, are you reading this?) Can you believe he's only 12? My whole family thought he was my age!

Img via #googleimages

Set off Kongming lanterns. I wished this unattainable wish and the thing ripped haha it was so funny but sad. It still flew, though. Albeit in the wrong direction.

Had bbq @ night. Began to mingle around w/ my people in the tour. Everyone turned out pretty nice hehe :> The bad thing was there were megahuge mosquitoes around! I tried smacking them all the way from dusk till dawn and i didn't even kill one but all of them got me.

Turned in for the night after that. That was pretty much my day 2. :>

Welcome 2 Taiwan! (Day1)

2011-12-18T14:47:00.013+08:00

Assemble at Singapore Changi International Airport. Your vacation begins with a pleasant flight from Singapore to Taipei, capital city of Taiwan. Upon arrival at Tao Yuan International Airport, you will be welcomed by our guide. For a start, we’ll visit to Xi Men Ting. This is the most popular shopping area among the young. If you are a food lover, don’t miss the famous “Ah Zhong” vermicelli around the corner.

Hi guys! I'm back from my Taiwan trip! I'm going to be posting about it so if you want to read it, read it, if not, don't bother . 就是这么简单! okay, just kidding lol i'm just influenced by my tour guide who kept saying that.

Yup so anyway,

0420hrs @ S'pore Changi Aiport checking in!

It was a four hour plane ride to Taiwan. It's been a while since i last took a plane so i felt ill throughout the whole trip. We took TransAsia, which was a bit on the budget side. Unlike SIA which has a telly for everyone to play games and watch movies, TransAsia has a television for every... 3 rows.

We reached Taiwan around noon!

Taiwan> Brothers' hotel> Ximending> SOGO> Hotel

Mummy & i @the hotel.

Oh and our tour group consisted of 2 families of 4, a couple, and a huge family of nine! And a tour guide whom looked like a poodle.

Then we went to Ximending!

haha this kid kept scratching his ass, super funny!

The street food was good and cheap! Missing my muah chee so much now! :(

Ate @ some toilet themed restaurant of which the food was disgusting. Nothing special, really. Just very novel.

In Taiwan, everyone queues up to take the train.

In Taiwan, everybody keeps to the right no matter how damn crowded it is in the station.

Think SMRT has high standards? Think again.

The sky gets dark really early there. Everybody was shagged so we returned to the hotel early. That was pretty much my day 1.

Peaceful night

2011-12-14T21:24:00.005+08:00

Hi guys! Greetings from Taiwan!

On the overall, this place is pretty okay. I'm almost through with the six days and it's going just as I expected. Cold weather, lots of shopping and food, etc. The hotels here are pretty good. I'm in this hotel now which has a hot tub in the bathroom. I never want to go back.

I miss Singapore. Or rather, I miss my phone, which has broken down just before my trip to Taiwan. And my contact lenses. Which I stupidly decided not to wear and I'm walking around with my black specs. And I kinda miss the weather. It's so cold here, I can't even breathe without my nose turning cold.

The people here are nice too. The taiwanese are really polite and organized. They queue up to take the mrt like whaaaaaaaat?! I wanted to meet someone like Gabriel, the guy I met on a Thailand tour a few years back. There are two brothers on the tour and they are pretty nice.

Tomorrow's the fourth day and second last day. The weather is pretty cold here and i'm freeeezing. The day starts and ends early. The six o'clock sky looks like a nine o'clock sky. You can never accurately predict the time.

I need to wake up at six tomorrow. Turning in now. Meanwhile, keep safe, keep faith. God bless.

a million voices strong,

2011-12-11T22:47:00.005+08:00

Last update before i leave!

Paul came over today to lend us his dslr! Went to Han's to have dinz later afterwards.

#1-gratuitous photo of myself and Paul's DSLR.

#2-Paul and my sis

#3-mummy n daddy

#4- meep

#5-blueberry crumble.

Byez.

Evangel and I are drowing each other in our cries of misery. Ah well, such is the life of a s'pore student.

leaving,

2011-12-11T22:16:00.002+08:00

Hi guys.

I will be overseas from the 12th to 18th of December. I'm not bringing my phone, reason being because it broke down on me, so don't call or sms me during these 6 days! If there's anything urgent, leave me a message on my facebook wall, or drop me an email. Hopefully there will be wifi there, and i can access the internet.

Meanwhile, keep safe, keep faith!

God Bless :)

I will never walk alone.

2011-12-10T18:44:00.004+08:00

"Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path." Psalm 119:105.

Ever since i went down this road, so much has changed. I see things clearer now, and i feel a lot better. I'm dreading the reopening of school, another year of endless studying, projects, etc. And apart from just academics, there are also other things waiting for me to settle.

So instead of actually trying to evade it, i decided to dedicate this week to God. If He brings me to it, He will bring me through it. His Light is always there, it's just whether you choose to see it. Next year's gonna be hectic and straining, but He will walk this journey with me.

So if anyone is reading this now, and you're facing a trial in a life, slow down and appreciate the Light in the darkness. He will always be there. You will never walk alone.

God Bless.

I will never walk alone.

2011-12-09T00:35:00.002+08:00

Met Serene to study @Airport and it was a pretty successful study date! And i'm really stoked, cos in about a few days' time, i will be @ the airport waiting to fl

y off! :>

^Serene

Was in Macs doing maths and i plonked my head onto the table like a gazillion times.

Stayed till around 7 and went around Bedok trying to get dinner. Walked home together afterwards cos we live super near each other!

i'm irrevocably in love with these things now.

Dated

2011-12-07T20:54:00.002+08:00

Today was probably one of my happiest days in a while.

Slept in, hung out with a good friend at the airport, completed some work, tried new things for the virgin time, found courage, received a call I was expecting for the longest time and I clinched what I wanted.

Couldn't ask for more.

RIP

2011-12-06T15:49:00.007+08:00

AsiaOne
Tuesday, Dec 06, 2011

SINGAPORE - Two men were charged in court yesterday for the murder of a 20-year-old full-time national serviceman at a Central Square carpark, reported the Straits Times. A third man was charged today.The victim, Chen Zi Xuan, suffered severe head injuries and died in hospital.The three - Poh Chong Heng, 27, Lee Boon Leong, 22, and Desmond Neo Han Wen, 24, along with two other men, had allegedly set upon Chen shortly after 6am last Saturday.Chen was with three other friends when the attack happened. It is not known if any weapons were used. He was reported to have been at Club Nana in Central Mall before the incident.Chen suffered from severe head injuries and died in hospital.The three suspects are currently remanded at Central police division lock-up while police trace the other assailants.If convicted of murder, they face the mandatory death penalty.

This time, it felt so close up and real. I saw his facebook wall. He was so young and had so many things ahead in store for him. And suddenly, BAM! All gone overnight. I read the messages his friends left for him and i teared. It was all so wasted. I can imagine him struggling, so painful and so real.

Justice be done. I would have sat in court for the hearing if i could.

Rest in peace.

major strop,

2011-12-05T23:11:00.005+08:00

Headed over to Bugis with my sis today to get our winter wear. Going overseas soon hehe i'm excited :>

Met her boyf and then we walked around. Felt like a lightbulb *grumbles*

Anyway pics from the iPad my dad got recently. Hooked onto temple run omg the creator should get a fucking nobel prize or something. It's max addictive and i play it 24/7. Well, almost 24/7.

Counting down till the day i can finally get out of Singapore for this year.

It's going to be a few more weeks until school reopens, and the thought of it fills me with total dread. So scary to be hardcore studying for 24/7 again for one whole fucking year! But then again, after next year, i will be finally done with my whole junior high life, (provided i don'tfuckmyself up and retain), and hopefully my whole Dunman high life. But obviously because i major fucked up my whole cca life, my chances of getting accepted into another jc is lower. And that just sucks.

2011-12-04T19:47:00.002+08:00

Mr Kwek's leaving Dunman! He's been my teacher officer for 3 years now, and i always looked upon him as a mentor, not just a teacher. He's a really patient person, albeit losing his temper with us a couple of times, each and every one perfectly justified. If you guys know me personally, i'm not very attached to NP ever since the beginning of y3. Yet he never lashed out at me, but on the contrary he was really patient. He talked to me nicely and never once raised his voice. It's reaching end of 2012. Even though i promised him i would return, i didn't. I really feel like i disappointed him.

snaphots

2011-12-02T12:38:00.003+08:00

My sis felt that she under utilised the cm she bought a few years back and now she's using it lol.

ttfn.

baking 101

2011-12-01T19:59:00.006+08:00

Helped my mum with baking today.

It was pretty fun i guess, but i'd never dare to try anything on my own hahaha.

Sister's jealous :>

1st-What i tried to do

2nd- what my mum did

What i did to the remaining dough. Why is it so fugly?!

2019 hrs now and we're finally done! Baking is rly not easy man. Wonder how the professional bakers do it.

walkies?

2011-12-01T16:45:00.004+08:00

Went out with @Hannah today for lunch @TM!

Met E-Jen @Tanahmerah MRT and i haven't met her in years! And we got along like loads better than we did when we last parted, which is a good thing!

Well yeah, i cut my fringe again so i had to pin it up. :/

Stopped in @Rubi's to get this! Got another one for my sis too :>

I think they're fucking gorgeous omg *.* These are the kind of objects you can never stop at just buying one!

Tata.

i will kill you blemishes

2011-11-29T14:03:00.015+08:00

Just went out and came back 80 bucks lighter. But my maternal grandmother just gave my sis & i money, which made the pain of spending so much @ one go lesser. :) Love you granny, hugs and kisses :3

Bought skincare products cos my skin is getting fucking bad out of the late.

When most girls say their skin is bad, it's just a pimple. When i say my skin is bad, i mean red spots covering every fucking inch of my face. Hope that it's cos the time of the month is coming soon, and it'll go after it's over.

picture from: http://szynal.com

My dermatologist initially told me to use this and i did. But it was expensive (ie: 30+ a bottle) so i stopped after i finished my first bottle and switched to crappy brands. Result was my skin condition was horrible. Spent 50 on it, hope it does miracles.

I am a sucker for pretty things.

My new powder foundation is pretty i rike.

This is fucking magic. SG sells good stuff too lol.

I hope my mum won't scream after realising i spent so much again.

And before going onto my FS and telling me that i'm damn vain and all and makeup won't make me any prettier...

1- if you have perfect skin, you don't understand what i'm in for and i hope you get my kind of skin condition one day and worse.

2- yes la i'm very vain. I'm like super vain. And thus, what are you gonna do about it? Buy up all the makeup products all over singapore?

TTFN!

0025hrs

2011-11-29T00:14:00.003+08:00

Hi guys.

It's been three weeks since i did my ear piercing and because it was actually hurting a little, i chose to remove the earrings today! And i will never get another piercing again, ever. Unless i'm like feeling really bored and 'on' that day.

If piercing is painful, removing the earrings is painful x 2

I couldn't even yank the little assholes out. It stuck so damn tightly together wtf. And once i try to pull them apart, it's like a maiming waiting to happen!

Chipped my index finger's nail really badly.

Used up a lot of cotton buds. Do you see the traces of blood on them?

Yeah and the ear studs i was living with for the past 3 weeks.

[Edit] I can't even sleep comfortably. Earsticks keep poking into my face and ear fuuuu

Tata! ♥

a dash of sexy,

2011-11-25T12:35:00.010+08:00

@ my cousins' house now and i'm bored. Thank God i brought chem there to do. It's fucking difficult please! Why is it that the difficulty level of the first topic is already so high?!

Porridge for lunch.

Was initially super excited to wear my new contacts but grey looks fake. Wearing colored contacts is like stepping into a bottomless abyss. Once you drop in, there's no way out.

2040 hrs and i need to start getting some work done.

my middle finger salutes you,

2011-11-24T23:13:00.005+08:00

DIE FISH DIE!

No duh it's not a fish i want dead.

My middle finger rises up to salute you and you have obviously made me really annoyed. Why don't you slip into something more comfortable, like a coma? You actually managed to anger me! I hope you're happy now. Do the world a favor, bang your head against the wall and die. Or play the violin on your wrist... with a knife. I'm pretty darn sure your presence will not be missed.

when we get drunk,

2011-11-20T09:56:00.007+08:00

Movie d8!

Picture taken @ LJS or somewhat similar i think.

I can't write anything here without sounding like a lesbian.

Hi Charlene, you're cool.

Want.

Keep staring at the photo i took with Bailey.

MY GOD HE'S SO CUTE, I CAN'T EVEN...:'-)

killing time,

2011-11-19T14:52:00.003+08:00

I'M BEING HORRIBLY UNPRODUCTIVE

I get distracted wayyy too easily, flicking between Twitter, Facebook, Formspring, Whatsapp, MSN, Blogger, and Omegle instead of doing my work.

I have been in this comatose state for the past 5 hours.

While looking for this meme, i chanced across this website which teaches you how to kill yourself. It's really... woah.

K bye 'back to work'.

cause you are on my mind,

2011-11-18T18:48:00.004+08:00

I tire so easily nowadays, it's crazy.

Had a kinda crappy day. Talked to Mrs Ong though, somehow i always feel better after i talk to her haha. Shall think things through now.

I have now absolutely no motivation to start on my work. Still waiting for replies from people and i'm going to kill them, it's been too long. Meeting Hannah for lunch soon, can't wait, it's been so long since i last saw her.

1236 hrs. Someone pls give me some strength to start on work.

i'm in love with a dog,

2011-11-17T17:01:00.013+08:00

Just reached home.

Really super shagged now.

school> OAP> Cafe cartel> TCC> Starbucks> Home

had a gr8 day.

Pls let me have some more days like this... :)

Hehe with @cheesy. Waiting for @WhiteSanctuary to come! Zzz she was so late but i wasn't bored cos i found a muse!

I attempted to photoshop it, BUT wait hear me out, i have no idea how to do liquify *small voice* Should have paid attention to computing in y1 and y2!

IT'S REAL IT'S REAL IT'S REAL!!!

And all this time you thought i was a useless person incapable of handling animals right?!

Saw the cutest toy poodle @ Starbucks and i fell head over heels over it. The owner whom was seated at a nearby table was such a gentleman and asked me if i wanted to pat his dog. I stroked it and it had super soft fur! It had this rly innocent look on it's face. Super angelic!

The owner came over shortly and talked to us! He introduced his dog as Bailey and was super friendly! He hoisted Bailey up from the bicycle basket and dumped him into my arms. Momentarily shocked cos i was super afraid i would drop him and the owner will go berserk and start screaming at me. Just held him like how... people cradle babies. Haha he looked super sweet!

Bailey didn't even resist albeit trying to kick me in the face. :( Was scared he would pee on me pls, haha what was i gonna change into? But he was rly well behaved and tame. I walked out of that unscathed.

Went to TCC to have cake! Super good but probably 374405854 calories so i didn't touch much of it.

^Charlene's artistic picture of it.

EH DON'T LIKE THAT LAH PEOPLE'S PHONE CAMERA ONLY 5 MP WITH NO AUTOFOCUS. :(

Hehe Bailey rly made my day! Such a qtpie. :>

looking forward to the weekend,

2011-11-17T09:20:00.008+08:00

i have obviously not inherited my mum's big eyes + parallel double eyelids.

And i readily admit to wearing double eyelid tape and geo lenses plz but it's not even half as big. And is that eyeliner in my last pic?

Why like that?!

0921 hrs and i'm very, very tired :(

Heading out to school soon though, can't wait to see my besties ^^

Shall get a bit of work done too even though i'm prepared that i won't study @ all!

Have a great day!

Look away if you don't want to see this,

2011-11-14T04:37:00.002+08:00

Bless the Lord, O my soul;
And all that is within me, bless His holy Name!
Bless the Lord, O my soul,
And forget not all His benefits.
Who forgives all your iniquities;
Who heals all your diseases;
Who redeems your life from destruction,
Who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies,
Who satisfies your mouth with good things,
So that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.
Psalm 103:1-5

I know what it feels like, i really do.

goldkenn

2011-11-12T19:54:00.002+08:00

liqchocs my love.

1046hrs [edit]

2011-11-11T10:45:00.011+08:00

Took a bit of alcohol and just puked everything out. Feeling fucking nauseous and my head's spinning like no one's biz. Why ah why like that! Never gonna touch those things again urgh can i pls die now?

But just had some 1 hr convo w charlene and i feel better. Hehe epic convos ftw. She wanted my makeup stuff but didn't wanna come over! :(( Lazy pig. Yup anyw i freaking love this girl la. Hehe was telling her that this person rolled her eyes @ me in school and i thought it was unprofessional. I got so stunned i couldn't even react normally, ie: ~~give her the middle finger .~~LOL actually i don't even know how to react! Like wtf i don't even know you and you haven't even talked to me and you rolled your eyes @ me? Why man am i very annoying? :'((

Going to sleep now. Nitez.

[edit]

Just saw this qt on tumblr!

Melted my heart.

OMFG IT'S EYES.

And it's tongue's too cute!

Just noticed that the no. of stray dogs on the roads are on the rise. It doesn't matter if it's a mutt or wdv breed. All dogs' lives are precious.

0353 hrs

2011-11-11T03:53:00.003+08:00

0353hrs and i'm awake.

#1-Str8 bangs

#2-earholes that i'm in love with

#3-doing the chinese assignments

0400hrs and i'm heading out soon.

It's the first time i don't feel exceptionally jubilant on a friday.

I like the way it hurts,

2011-11-10T23:59:00.010+08:00

earholes itching away like no one's biz.

sign of an infection?

fuck.

there's nothing wrong with just a taste of what you paid for

2011-11-09T18:12:00.008+08:00

Hover your mouse over the pictures to get it's unadulterated state. Why is there this white mist hanging over my pictures anyway!?!?

Saw this #viatumblr. It made so much sense, i had to put it on my desktop *.*

Fresh 2nd ear piercing! Shall i do a third one next year? Not very interested in piercing anywhere else now cause it'll hurt like fuck, promise. Plus i'll look like i'm v fond of picking fights.

"Which is what you like to do what, no meh!"- Jerome.

Can't seem to get a clear picture of this.

And i seem to have lost my only cross designed earrings! :-'(

**********

What kept me alive during the EOY period...

Panadol.

Lots & lots of these darling pills cos i have headaches that come like a thunderstorm and shake my head like fuck.

I'm sorry if i come across to you like a hardcore panadol addict but i'm rly not la haha. Just that it rly seems to help a lot. But it's too weak for me now.

And chicken essence.

despite Brand's insistence that it helps to perk you up, it doesn't seem to do anything for me.

I just... felt the same. #snooze

^Notes from friends

And starbucks coffee! Their coffee is like the best fucking invention anyone has ever created.

And other stuff.

*********

and random stuff on my table

November's schedule which i'm unfortunately not abiding to. Ohwell. :(

NYAA bronze badge!

Finally got this after nearly 2 years of working on this *.*

Do until can freaking die.

WHO HASN'T STARTED ON SILVER?! #Raisesbothhandsup

And my currently v messy workstation.

Btw, the chinese book is not written for humans to read.

And Google translate is not helping with anything.

1840 hrs and i'm crankygirl96.

Bye.

2011-11-08T22:53:00.002+08:00

Just a short one...

Just a while ago, this XXXXXXXXXXXXL sized cockroach came flying into the house.

LIKE, FLYING.

It had hairy legs and it's thorax was dark red in color. It made a hell lot of cockroach noise and it was really very noisy. The bloody wings kept crashing into the walls. If it landed on my arm, i would gladly have my arm amputated.

I got freaked out and ran out of the room shrieking, and woke everyone up. Daddy just walked out of his room nonchalantly, grabbed a plastic bag, caught the cockroach and dumped it into the bin. Bravery at it's best.

Dad-1, cockroach-0.

^__^

2011-11-08T19:58:00.002+08:00

I GOT MY SECOND EAR PIERCING Δ

I'm now a very, very happy girl hehe.

Please don't let it close or get any sort of infection. I will cry, i swear.

2011-11-08T17:24:00.000+08:00

Shimmy,

2011-11-07T17:53:00.004+08:00

The pimple on my ear is now virtually non-existent, thanks guys for asking. Can feel it's spiritual presence though wtf, so they advised me to not get my ears pierced! How much longer do i have to wait?! But how fucked up can it get if i get an infection because i have the pimple? It's annoying how i keep having to postpone my ear piercing appointment just cause of that one pimple.

But ohwell i did get cold feet when i entered the shop! The piercing i got 5 yrs back was done there and it hasn't fully recovered. It's still oozing pus and blood to this day when i put on metal studs. The really nice and pretty shopkeeper says it's cause i have sensitive skin and i have to boil my earrings before putting them on. Uhm....

But i'm going back this weekend. Pimple or not, i'm going to get it done. I can't keep putting it off indefinitely. 3 wks to recover before i travel. Sounds like a plan. And i really really ~~want~~ need a second earhole.

Ttfn, hope you all are having a blast!

Chino combo,

2011-11-05T21:12:00.003+08:00

My auntie's dog!

TOO CUTE FOR WORDS AZWSXETVFGBHNUJMIKO

WHY IS HE SO CUTE!

Oh and he's super intelligent too! Why can't i have a dog, i want a poodle!

And not this kind, in case you're thinking why i want something that looks so... bimbotic.

I meant this!

I like furry dogs with lots of fur and are small sized. They're generally easier to manage, other than having to keep sweeping the fur up.

trying hard,

2011-11-05T19:09:00.003+08:00

Seeing the Starbucks cup decorated with Christmas patterns sure brings back loads of memories.

What beats the cold with sitting in a Starbucks cafe and drinking coffee?

I don't actually have a lot to blog about.

Oh. I cut straight bangs. Regretted it right away.

I don't go out without my fringe pinned up. My friends commented i look old with my fringe up, but there's no fucking choice. It's a choice between looking like a... sphinx and looking old. Trust me, i would rather look 21.

And it's going to stay like that until it grows long enough for another haircut.

But i'm going to get my ear pierced tomorrow. And a tragus piercing with @Evangel next year. Fuck it, i'll just get an industrial piercing too. What's with me and ear piercings hahaha. But how am i gonna escape all the teachers' sharp eyes sighz life is hardddd. :(

Okay bye.

jab it in,

2011-11-02T12:42:00.003+08:00

omg damn pretty! I want a second ear piercing!

Went down to the shop i went to 5 yrs back when i got my first earhole, but they said i couldn't pierce another one for now cos i got a pimple on my earlobe, which is where i wanna get a piercing! Haha super weird place to get a pimple la ikr.

AND THE JEWELER FREAKING SQUEEZED MY PIMPLE(cos he said that it's super weird to get a pimple there and wanted to see for himself hahaha). BUT!!! HELLO I'M MADE OF FLESH AND SQUEEZING MY PIMPLE HURTS ME OKAY.

The jeweler wanted me to pierce my industrial. I seriously might have just agreed if not for my dad's presence haha. And maybe just asked for a tragus piercing as well. Oh well, guess i can only come back after the pimple's gone :(

Yup anyway, does anyone wanna get a piercing as well? Join me i want a discount hahahaha #fuckingcheapskate text me, formspring me, whatsapp me, dm me, tweet me!

2011-10-29T20:53:00.002+08:00

Unlocked my phone to find out that someone sent me 2 whatsapp messages. I instinctively thought it was from him and my heart started racing. Turns out that i had my hopes up too high.

Snap out of it.

without you,

2011-10-29T20:14:00.010+08:00

Mummy's probably nagged at me a million times to clean out all my stuff i have collated over the past 2 years. Finally did so today since i had nothing to do!

Chipped my nails :(

Pretz bracelet daddy got for me.

jellybands from eons ago!

The notes Shanice and Anni wrote for me in the name of someone else ;)

grey contacts for me during the hols!

Charlene wants my drawing block from GAP!

Ohyeah, anyone wants paint? Totally unused!

Passing my MB and guidebooks to @Ebelle

And this is what i'm gonna give to my y1 going on to y2 junior! Super huge stack!

And the stuff i'm gonna throw.

Juniors didn't win the comp today, but it was rly good effort on their part! Gr8 job, juniors! I'm rly sorry i couldn't come down to support, stuff cropped up! And i didn't wanna get questioned zz.

K ttfn.

out and down

2011-10-28T22:08:00.003+08:00

After walking around in circles, i'm back at square one.

Why does he have to do this to me?

Fuck this, have to get him outta my mind. He doesn't like me he doesn't like me. I could repeat this a million times but never snap out of it.

ended,

2011-10-28T17:57:00.008+08:00

and so,

~~2011 School Year~~

Had my last day of school today 8D Got back my dosier and i was kinda, eh, delighted?, i guess, to know that my GPA is actually adequate for me to transfer! Can't wait for next year to end, provided i don't die by then.

Hmm, okay just a post to wrap up my whole school year.

I was pretty attached to

debate
MPP
NP
3E

for this year!

Debate was the bomb this year. Got a new coach, and our team had to force ourselves to adapt to his style. I'm really happy that the team came thus far! Got to know the debate seniors this year too! Haha i like how we always have witty comebacks for what other people say. Love you guys ttm.

Yup and when i mention debate, i can never leave out the YDO experience. Met debaters from other schools as well! And also the organisers CH and Colin! Haha i remembered how we laughed until our abs hurt from Colin's jokes.

We met only twice throughout the whole event, each session lasting up to around 10 hrs, and we're fond of each other! I rly miss them a lotttttt.

Yup and MPP.

I'm rly genuinely sorry and regretful that i didn't rly put in my best, seriously. If i could do it all over again, i would never do it the same.

And NPCC,

so many damn million times this year when i tell people that my first CCA is actually NP, they were like,"huh, are you fucking serious?"

Yes, bitches i am.

Uhm, not a rly good year for me haha. Can't really say much about wdv bond i have between my squadmates and i cause i will sound super hypocritical la, but i still do feel for them, after all i was with them for 2 yrs.

Andddd, 3E.

my new class for this year!

Started out rly badly and i hated 3e. But as time went past, friendships were forged and now i really hmm, like 3e a lot more. It seems not long ago when we had our orientation together as a class, and it won't be long now when we embark on our y4 journey together.

Thank you for everything.

There's like this damn long list of people i want to thank for helping me through this year.

Some points in time were so horrible i felt like dying. I erred a lot this year but i found God and placed trust in Him, and He really saved me. Thank you God for all you've given me. :'-)

Mdm Loh, Mrs Ong, Mrs Low, Mr Goh, Mrs Chu, Mr Loke, Mr Lim, Mr Kwek, Mr Azhar, Ms Khoh, Ms Soh, Ms Pear, Ms Ho for all the constant help and guidance.

And yeah everyone in 3e, debate and np who made a difference.

Here's to y2012 being a better schl yr for us all.

Cheers!

i love my team ♥

2011-10-27T21:45:00.005+08:00

Debate outing part 2!

Sharon uploaded the pics just now! Hehe mainly camwhore pics from the girls since the guys thinks it "challenges our masculinity" Y'all don't know what you're missing out on!

I used to think debating was some high-class mind sport which only involved the elite. That was the reason why i joined debate. To hurt with words instead of brute force, and to be a notch above everyone else. But i met these people, and together with my coach, they veered my whole mindset around. I love debate for what it is right now. Super majorly love my teammmmm. Thank you for everything. ♥

Playing 猜拳 with ding heng!

Having a fking bad headache now zz. Nitez all.

one sick obsession

2011-10-27T19:31:00.004+08:00

Dear world,

Blessed is the person who understands the reason for praying isn't to have all they want, but to thank God for all they have been given. Thank you, my Lord, for all the enlightenment you have given me, making me into a better person.

Nothing's up lately.

colored pens that i bought.

Unless you like preserved plums a lot, don't ever buy this^. Ate two and threw the whole thing away!

Went out with @Charlene and @Dion to TM for lunch and movie during Deepavali! Went head first into another heated argument with my mum before she grudgingly allowed to let me go.

Charlene's iPhone cover! Ridiculously cute!

Went to LJS to eat! Omg it was damn oily can haha. I was rly scared of eating so i used a tissue to squeeze the oil out haha. K, stupid.

hehe pretzgirl96

looking damn cui^ no makeup on + no geo lenses + minimal sleep!

watched the 3 musketeers ! Thought it was a rly interesting movie, omg Logan Lerman, Y U SO HANDSOME!?!?!?

Instant love! ^

I really liked the movie! Omg the guys are the epitome of hotness!

One more day till schl ends. Watched Phantom of the Opera today and the drama performances. Don't really appreciate arts, so i kinda... zoned off? Had debate afterwards!

Rly shagged now.

Just received a text from someone trying to ask what happened between me and some other random guy. I wish i could reply her,

Nothing much. We went to the bar together, smoked some sheesha, and both of us got damn high from the tobacco and alcohol. We checked into some random hotel and y'know, we couldn't help ourselves so we started tearing clothes off each other and the inevitable happened. Now i'm pregnant with his child.

I sound like some cheap slut, but the bottomline is,

GOD DAMN IT, WTF ARE YOU AND DON'T. PROBE.

Okay ttfn. :)

it's us against the world,

2011-10-25T19:15:00.003+08:00

Losing you isn't the hardest part, it's knowing that i once had you breaks my heart.

like,

i'm rly damn tired of trying to read your mind when i have no fucking idea what thoughts are running through it, rly damn tired of trying to do things for you when you obviously don't even realise anything, rly damn tired of you and your ways, and rly damn tired of everything.

Went to vivo to get my phone fixed, and i had to wash every single piece of information away, even though i had e choice to save them all. There goes our messages, whatsapp conversations, etc. Yup i used to cherish them a whole lot, I didn't want to do this, but it's rly time for me to let go of what we once shared? Idk, but yeah, i'm letting go, at long last.

I rly want to tell myself it's not over, but why am i torturing myself and putting myself through all these uncertainties? It's enough, i had enough of you. I don't know who she is to you, even though i pray that she's not who i think she is, but who am i kidding?

I can't even look at you in the eye now. Guess the only way out is to walk away and pretend we never met at all.

Let today be our last and final encounter.

mistletoe

2011-10-24T20:48:00.003+08:00

Exhausted and really upset now. After like idk, 4 hrs of archery, sonia&i cabbed over to eastpoint cos i needed to get some stuff! Returned to schl and then went of to Cedar for debate sparring. Saw Nabila and hugged her hehe omg miss her so much!

Got off rly late and reached home arnd 2030hrs. And i dropped my phone and it's now... malfunctioning. Fuck life.

i wish i'd never met you.

be on time,

2011-10-23T17:44:00.008+08:00

bedok int > H2 hub > Bedok mrt > Bedok point > Wasabi san > Bedok point > Sushi tei > NYDC > home.

Was a great outing, laughed really hard, probably the hardest i did in a while.

Met up with Sonia, stephen, dingheng, sharon and baron for a mini debate lunch! Went to sushi tei and had lunch first. Hung around to play finger guessing! Loser had to drink the random and disgusting stuff we mixed tgt from our leftovers. To think after all my yrs of playing finger guessing, i can't beat dingheng ._.

Left for NYDC! Sat in there to talk and play games. All we ordered was a slice of cake to share among the 6 of us haha.

^this was the sexxxxxx. The 6 of us chomped it down in less than 5 mins!

Oh oh oh and stephen thinks that taking pictures challenges his masculinity!

Played shoot shag marry! Haha i didn't know deciding on who to marry was such a tough choice! Ding and steph almost cried when they tried to decide who they had to marry haha it was so funny!

Headed home after that. Got into a verbal argument with my mum after i reached. God give me strength to hold back and not lash out. Rly fucking pissed off and annoyed now!

okay guys see y'all around!

timeless

2011-10-23T17:29:00.005+08:00

It really sucks to always be blamed for things that happen. It's always my fault that shit happens, and things get fucked up. It really sucks that i must always be the one to give in and to shoulder the blame, well maybe it's cause i'm the youngest and it's always the most convenient to just push all the shit onto me? Well, thanks a lot, but i've already got enough on my hands.

Okay fine, like you said, i'm stupid with no EQ, and i know nothing other than studying. Fine, it's okay with me, it's not the first time you all have said this to me anyway. Yes i'm sorry i'm stupid and brainless and not understanding. I'm sorry that i'm a burden and all i can do is to cause trouble. I'm sorry that i'm useless and not capable of anything. I'm fucking sorry. Is that good enough for you now?

2011-10-23T00:23:00.000+08:00

i miss my seniors :(

Kiss me under the mistletoe

2011-10-22T09:58:00.005+08:00

Amen.

God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble. -Psalm 46.1

Went for NP yesterday after collecting my results! S and A went home to take my uniform with me and we cabbed back to school but there was a bloody jam on the ecp cos of some traffic accident! Fucking meter was jumping like nobody's biz. And when we got to school it was like 12bucks when it's usually only 7! And we were late la. Those two made me run all the way to bags room @3G! I blew 21bucks in a day cos of NP omg am i still me?

NP was still ok for me yesterday i guess? Mostly sat in the bags room w KW, Amos and Ebelle. Mr Kwek came in and we talked for a while before he went off! Got off at 6 and went to find my optician cos my contact lens ripped in my eye! They didn't even want to exchange it for me lah i was so angry i lost it and shouted at them -.-

Anyway,

My 汉语水平考试 results are out! About time! ^^

it's a pass so i'm happy! 8D

Gonna run now, still have loads to do. Bye!

cry me a river,

2011-10-20T19:15:00.003+08:00

Yup so the results are out.

LA and HCL was okay for me. Geography was unexpected, i scraped a pass ie:25.5, not bad okay! I totally gave up on geog to study the other subjects. But this is it, physical geog is over! Considering how badly my physical geog is doing, it's really good news la!

Chem was the disappointing one. Was super upset and started crying. WEAK. EOY always drags me down, so annoying.

Going off now. Not looking fwd to tmw.

Really hate the post exam period anyway. Damn stupid la i keep on eating even though i'm not hungry. Just ate one packet of pocky today why why why! And other than jogging and skipping rope i don't exercise already! Need to go swim and play tennis these 2 months! Shall try to skip every other meal from tmr onwards and live on water like i did before/during eoys zz.

I'm not sorry,

2011-10-19T19:49:00.005+08:00

God grant me the serenity to accept the people I cannot change, the courage to change the one I can, and the wisdom to know it's me

It's tomorrow. I'm going to be strong and try not to shed any tears tomorrow upon seeing my horrible results. I know i did really badly but fuck this shit, it's all over, hopefully. I always say this but i know i will definitely break down and bawl my eyes out tomorrow, always happens.

Last year of this day, i got my y2 eoy results back. I started crying for LA, of which i failed my essay, and then the crying got to me and i started crying for every single paper cause i got really upset.

Went to view museums for the first day of the post exam activities.

Yup that was all i took. Was so bored i just started taking pictures.... of myself ._.

Went for my sculpture walk today. It was one of the most boring thing i ever did, considering that i can navigate my way around S'pore river with my eyes closed. Was so happy to come back to school. Had maths lessons then debate!

Haven't seen Jeremy and my team in the longest time ever. Miss them a lot! And well, stuff took place and the seniors ie: us, put up a damn fail drama show LOL. We wanted to scare everyone by crying but we ended up laughing haha. COACH Y U SO FUNNY.

Okay will stop here. All the best for tomorrow. Stay strong, after all, results are just a slip of paper with a number written on it. #selfcomforting

the reason behind my slit,

2011-10-14T19:25:00.008+08:00

I can fake a smile when I feel horrible. I can pretend to be happy. But, what I can't do is pretend that I don't love you.

No words can describe how i feel towards you.

That mixture of sadness, gratitude, and infatuation. I'm sorry for being so clingy, over analytical, annoying, over sensitive and everything else.

It's time to let things go cause they were never meant to last anyway.

But thank you so much, for everything you've done and how you made me feel. I'll promise myself to forget about you by this weekend.

Yup but on a brighter side,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHYB!

You've made so much difference, than you so much.

Visit:

http://stophatingyourbody.tumblr.com/

i owe you one,

2011-10-13T16:49:00.012+08:00

I'M BACK!

That feeling of freedom is so damn fucking amazing.

IT'S OVER!

I lived through EOY 2011!

Please let me survive EOY 2012 successfully, get a high GPA, and leave Dunman High for somewhere else.

i have...

-screamed my lungs out after the exams √

-Ate at a fast rood restaurant with my classmates √

-Went to Daiso to get stuff with Shanice√

-Got a story book √

-Cleared my work stations √

I'm going to

-Go out

-sleep

-sleep some more

-convert

~~-tidy my wardrobe which is now in a fucking big mess~~

-prepare myself for the emotional trauma i'm going to face

-learn to manage anger

-Get a crumpler baggggg!

-Get a present for someone

This EOY week has gotta be one of the hardest and worst times i ever been through. Totally felt like i was carrying a time bomb with me 24/7, ready to explode anytime. I remember i cried everyday facing those fucking tall piles of revision i didn't want to start on, and the ways i tried to relieve stress was... okay i felt it was pretty much normal to me but a lot of people found it pretty horrifying.

When today's paper ended, that feeling of euphoria was fucking amazing. It's goodbye to the 2am mugging nights, shouting matches, tempers that run high etc. Until next year, that is. Everybody screamed hahaha, we were so high.

Probably the most FML paper was Physics, other than Geog, which i just totally didn't bother studying for. I freaking teared while attempting it cause i was like, fuck man i don't know how to crack this question, in addition to another 10 questions. But thank God my teacher made me memorise the kinematics equation on that very morning. Totally saved my life.

I think i'm going to really break down and bawl my eyeballs out when we get our results back! Someone please bring truckloads of tissues for me!

2011-10-12T18:13:00.001+08:00

Alrighty last paper tomorrow! :)

Really, really proud that i hung on for so long. It's been so tough ever since this year started. There were so many times when i wanted to give up but thank God for the people who were there for me to push me on. Love you all so much.

2011-10-09T10:38:00.003+08:00

i could live without you but without you i would be miserable at best.

2011-09-24T12:26:00.002+08:00

I am unworthy of the people who are trying to help me through this whole mess i got myself in. They are fighting for me to get me through this whole situation, while i sit there refusing to budge, refusing to accept their help, refusing to help myself.

My responsibility, yet given away to others to settle. This is so undeserved.

2011-09-17T09:16:00.001+08:00

2011-09-11T20:48:00.000+08:00

with nothing but your T-shirt on,

2011-09-11T20:33:00.003+08:00

2036 hrs.

Sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos. Taking them off cause i feel like a fool, trying to dress up when i'm missing you. It's one of those days when i don't feel like doing anything ♥

Oh hai it's me being ghostly.

Yup my skirt's different. It was my blazer skirt. Felt too lazy to wear two kinds of skirts so i just wore the one i needed. It's damn bloody short i know.

Tired eyes :(

My scripts hahaha wtf.

So damn tired, can i just drop dead and die or something?

everything and more

2011-09-11T18:49:00.009+08:00

Hey guys,

Went to Bedok Library with Kaizheng and Serene today ^^

We made the date on fb, but i thought they weren't serious, so didn't go. But they really meant it LOL. So i met up with them for lunch before studying.

No contact lenses on cause my eyes are getting rlly dry and i didn't wash them anyway.

We saw the Ping Yi qtpie! :D He's really damn handsome omg @.@ Me and Serene were going on about him, and kaizheng who never saw him, was like,"WHERE WHERE WHERE!" LOL epitome of cuteness lah that girl 8D

Zheng and the sticky sweets ^^ Who represent my "crush" 8D.

Mei2 lian3 jian4 ren2 face cause they said my crush was old and ugly and unsexy and un-handsome and just disgusting :(

but in my heart he's the best ♥

Zheng so demure! 8D

Hehe yeah that was how i spent my sunday.

I need to pack my chinese file.

BUT ALL MY WORKSHEETS ARE ON MARS.

TTFN.

We fell out today.

2011-09-11T00:58:00.001+08:00

Things change, people leave, and some things will never stay the same...

we'll never be apart,

2011-09-10T18:16:00.003+08:00

I just, or rather, my team just finished filming the bitchiest LA assignment this morning in the music atrium.

I was literally in my blazer wear minus my court shoes. It was really hot wearing that attire acting out the roles. I kept on laughing, what a cow.

2011-09-10T00:50:00.001+08:00

i fucking relate, sweetheart.

don't let me go

2011-09-07T21:27:00.001+08:00

I wear heels bigger than your dick. One kick from me into your balls will render you impotent for life.

once fucked up and everything's alright,

2011-09-06T18:36:00.011+08:00

"I keep fighting for us, because I want you, the first time I saw you, I just knew. No matter how many times, we yell at each other, deep down we both know, we’ll never find another. Even if obstacles separate us, we somehow always return, love will always guide us, we just live and learn. I want you to know, when the day comes to an end, I just can’t picture life without you."

Hey guys.

Geog make up lesson in the morning. Got my test paper back. Passed, so.. uhm, yay. #Geogfail. Not gonna reveal what i got, fucking embarrassing, :< Consultation with miss pear with Serene ^^

Me: How you know it's this mountain? *points to random location on the paper

Miss Pear: Aiya you can't know what! Unless you stay beside a mountain and when i give you the mountain then you say ,"oh this is my mountain!

I stared at her, then burst out laughing. OMF it was damn funny hahaha.

Lunch with serene, made a date with her to study at Bedok lib and she agreed hahaha :>

1836 hrs and i'm in bedok library with @Serene to study ^^ Saw the same guys as i did yesterday haha, such a coincidence! Secretly hoping they would be there, actually. There was this guy who's damn bloody hot, i can't even... :-')

I'm going over to ask for his number soon. The way he laughs is so sexy *.* He throws back his head and reveals his teeth in this damn sexy manner. But... he takes history, not geog. Hotness level down 50% cause boys who take geog are more intellectual. (Cause I take geog ^^) Moo. :(

Doing my ACE reflections now! I'm sitting directly opposite the guy and spying from him above the head of my laptop. He's really handsome, i can't keep my eyes off him! I sound pervy, hahaha, but trust me, he's older. ^^ Probably taking his 'O's this year.

Meet my qtpie Serene ^^

And imo, Bedok Library's coffee is not bad!

Oh, halfway through my handsome boy left :< Then my productivity level dipped by 100%. LOL JK i pretended not to notice and continued doing my work, but inside i was like...

"please don't go away please please please!"

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

Stayed around till nine? Then we left :)

2239 hrs now. Still have chem at 8 plus tomorrow. Really tired, this really doesn't feel like a holiday. :<

FML I FORGOT TO TAKE A PICTURE OF THE HOT GUY.

Okay that's all i shall go emo nao.

2011-09-05T21:04:00.002+08:00

Was at bedok library from 5pm. Wanted to leave by 7, but there was a damn cute hot guy so i stayed till almost 9. Omg he's sokute *.*

In case you haven't seen this shit,

2011-09-04T15:40:00.005+08:00

^ the iPHONE 5

Fucking amazing or what? Technology has evolved so much, it's scary!

LIKE, BITCH, IT HAS A LASER KEYBOARD, HOLOGRAPHIC PROJECTOR, AND IT'S SO DAMN BLOODY SLIM, I CAN'T EVEN.... :-')

I don't want to be mean, but, people sold their virginity and all for the iPAD and iPHONE 4. No, i'm not making this up, it's splattered all over the news. And then this came out. This amazing baby.

What now?

they'll all be like,

And just a random thing i found on twitter,

type O dislike bossy people like SOO MUCH #viatumblr

MUMDADSISTERBROTHER THIS IS SO FUCKING TRUE.

Something about love,

2011-09-03T19:24:00.006+08:00

Hey guys,

Just did my HSK this morning. I thought it was difficult, my chinese standard has hit rock bottom ikr. ._. There were so many MCQs, like wtf? I did twenty, and i was like, OMF THERE'S STILL LIKE 30 MORE TO GO.

It was probably the most torturous 2 hours of my life. I was seriously lying there all sprawled over the table, trying not to die.

The teacher in charge had a really thick chinese accent, Jaren had to tell m

e what she was talking about LOL #chinesefailmax Yup, all in all, i'm hoping for a pass! ^^

Yups, removed by old nails and did my nails again at a really expensive price #dontmentionit. Did simpler stuff this time round cause it's only a one week break :( Moo Looks colourless ikr, but yeah my webcam quality sucks :( Sorry 'bout that!

I hurt myself as much as i hurt you, trust me. It didn't last, but i was really happy. I don't know how to tell you why i did this, but everything was for the best :) All the best.

newspaper nails

2011-09-02T22:14:00.002+08:00

#viagoogleimages

Yeah i did this exact same thing today. Was super fun, but then i realised that i had HSK tomorrow so i had to remove them -_-

why is life so sad :<<

K guys, wish me all the best for HSK tomorrow! ^^ Going all the way to Yio Chu Kang to take man, wtf? Daddy's fetching me and EnQi, though. Thanks daddy, love you sosososo much 8D.

2011-09-02T21:28:00.004+08:00

-__- HSK TOMORROW -__-

wristslits,

2011-09-01T19:28:00.004+08:00

1929 hours and i'm busy drawing up my schedule for this September holidays.

Really feel like heading out for a movie, eat some ice cream at udders/ cold stone creamery or to see some people, but NO I SHALL LOCK MYSELF AT HOME AND ENDURE UNTIL MY EOYS ARE OVER.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA DID YOU JUST BELIEVE ME?!?!?!

#Viafacebook

Congrats on being ranked third ^^

schizophrenic bitch,

2011-09-01T14:22:00.003+08:00

Happy teachers' day to all my mentors who have taught and guided me. Thanks for everything :)

Day started out in a really annoying way. Called this girl to tell her that i was not interested to go all the way down to meet outside the staffroom cause look who was rushing out a piece of chinese assignment?

And she was like, "WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!" *proceeds to give lecture*

So i hung up on her. Like, da fuck? And she smsed me- :( dao me.

Okay fml my level of tolerance isn't even half as high as it was last time. Getting more and more angsty by the day, and i don't even know why! Must be the hormones. Either that or the fact that EOYs are coming soon and i haven't started revising.

Check out the dude at the back! ^

Tagged along with Charlene after the concert ended.

AND THAT BITCH WAS BEING DAMN MEAN. SOMEONE'S GONNA CRY HIMSELF TO SLEEP TONIGHT THANKS TO HER.

They said i was silly for trusting you. I never felt that way until today.

once upon a time,

2011-08-31T22:08:00.003+08:00

#viatumblr

It's been a really fast paced term. Is it week fucking 10 already?!

You used to be my strength. I used to smile whenever i saw your face, my heart used to race whenever i heard your name. You were the reason why i was so unwilling to get into a relationship. But after today, you made me realize that no matter how much i treasured you, i wasn't gonna get a shit back in return. I told you everything i never told anyone, and you told someone else. You said you were doing it for me, but i tell you, you did it cause you had to protect yourself. Better me dying than you, right? You always hated me for giving you extra trouble. Always hated me for everything i did, you despise me cause of what i do, but you never went through what i did. You think you're good, cause you always have a bevy of girls surrounding you. From January till now, do you know how many guys i turned down because i had a thing for you? Which is the reason why i decided not to be so stupid this time round, and went out with the Hwach. I hate you, and after today, i know the feeling is mutual.

This is it.

2011-08-30T13:55:00.001+08:00

i hope you slept well, cause you kept me up all night with your questions.

"Why do you want to get involved? What do you really want?"

always,

2011-08-29T20:14:00.004+08:00

Thank you Mr Loke for saying i can hand in the maths assignment late or i can never complete it on time cos i never really got that chapter.

2020 hrs. Stuck, majorly stuck with ACE. The essay's driving me stir crazy, and i have to keep on editing one of my member's work cause it's like... @.@ Okay fuck me, i'm a mean slut. :> Yeah and i cried halfway throughout cause it was just killing me from inside and scared the shit out of my sis. Like wtf i cried over this shit, like how i cried over the ACE ppt slides. I swear i stayed up damn late every night to solo out those slides.

ACE YOU BITCH, LOOK WHAT YOU DID TO ME.

And i freaking cried while doing miss soh's comprehension cause it was being such a bitch T.T Thank God my sister's an english teacher. ^^ I think i'm gonna fail that comprehension anyway.

Do you think there's actually a chance of me retaining cos i failed LA? What if i really retain? I mean, i'm already getting a C now, what the fuck. I get angsty whenever i mention my grade for LA. What if i fail my EOY? THEN I WILL FUCKING RETAIN. I think i'll grab a plane ticket and fly to somewhere else to study and NEVER RETURN.

I'd better get on with my essay now. Get it done by tonight, maybe?

Oh, and i got my new pair of contacts :>

On my mind,

2011-08-27T12:32:00.003+08:00

My current FB DP ^

Continued from the camwhoring session from yesterday hahaha. :>

Thinking back, yesterday was too fun ^^

i heard you're asking all around, [edit]

2011-08-26T23:15:00.004+08:00

For the follower who asked for pictures, here you go.

Just two for now, i'm really not in the mood for taking pictures.

Yeah anyway S'pore is the first Asian country to be the world champs of WSDC! #Patriotic hahaha. OMG so happy for Spore's debate ^^

K guys, byeeeeeeee.